Do you believe in God? How do you imagine God? What is your relationship with God?
Yeah, I believe in God. I imagine Him as a force, like a spirit who can influence your life and everything that happens around you. I've had times in my life when I needed faith and I feel like He was there for me.
Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened.
Well, I've certainly had a few crushes, or something.
Recently I met someone online as she critiqued my writing. I let her see the book, and she was working on it. Before long she was asking me to move down to her state.
This is the weird thing: I had long fantasized that someone, a highschool 'girlfriend' who nevertheless looked rather like "Lauren" (Not her real name, but one that came to me when I was half awake and couldn't remember the right one, after.) would call me up and ask me to go, live with her and marry her.
In the daydream, I went.
Lauren was just as critical of me, though she was much more... charming, much of the time, about it. (A psych major. She used many tricks I've later read about in my OWN studies.) Well, come to think of it, the original never really criticized me; I just knew I would never measure up. Had more in common with me. Same religious barriers.
It was as if God had answered my prayer, knowing the first girl refused to do it.
Anyhow, I dumped my job and most of my stuff, put myself deeper in debt and ran cross country to meet her days after her divorce.
Within a month, she was paying to send me home. Within another month, she had blocked me on the writer's website where I had met her. She never even finished the book I was working on.
Fortunately, I got my old job back and my friend that she wanted to ban (a gay woman) is still talking to me. Also, Lauren got me to take college courses, a school loan. So, it was heaven sent, even if... a bit heartbreaking.
I get what I pray for, and sometimes daydreaming works the same. I forgot to dream of the 'happily ever after.' Sigh. Just the heroic rescue and fantasy exodus.